"You,

I always seem to do the same thing. Run to God only when I'm heart broken, then allow Him heal my heart, only to run away again. Then I find myself sluggishly climbing back into His lap with tears on my face. 

It's been quite sometime since I've last ran to God, and now I'm been broken again but I can't seem to find God's lap. I don't even know if I truely want to find it. I'm obsessed with meeting you, my future husband. So much so that I forget the One who is going to lead me to you. How can you find the treasure without the map? Or at least the right treasure. Right now I need to stop searching for you, and start looking for the lap I so desperatly need to climb up on. 

Who knows, maybe God doesn't entend for me to be married, maybe you don't exist. But I hope you do because I love you already. 

Right now I'm saving my heart for that lap, keeping it safe in God's hands. I'm handing over the pen for Him to write my love story, to Him who wrote the most beautiful love story between a Savior and His people. I'm sure He can handle it."

-Anonymous 

Set Apart This Dream

by Flyleaf



Close your eyes little girl
You're a princess now
You own this world
Twirling in your twirly dress
You're the loveliest far above the rest
You build your castles in the skies
Stars reflecting off your eyes
And angels sing on silver clouds
And no one cries screams or shouts'

Ooohh set apart this dream
Set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream
For me

Close your eyes pretty girl cause its easier when you brace yourself
Set your thoughts on a world far off
Where we only cry from joy

Ooohh set apart this dream
Set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream
For me

Oh lovely and beautiful
Precious and priceless
You're so much more than you know
Heart of the purest gold
Pure clean and white as snow
Clothed in such splendor
Oh what a beauty for me.

Set apart this dream
Set apart this dream

Ooohh set apart this dream (set apart this dream)
Set apart this dream(set apart this dream for me)
Set apart this dream for me

Sara Edwards

"They say there is a young lady in New Haven who is beloved of that Great Being who made and rules the world. They say that He fills her mind with exceeding sweet delight, and that she hardly cares for anything except to meditate on Him. If you present all the world to her, with the riches of its treasures, she disregards it. She is unmindful of any pain of affliction. She has a singular purity in her affections. You could not persuade her to compromise her true Love even if you would give her all the world. She possesses a wonderful sweetness, calmness, and kindness to those around her. She will sometimes go about from place to place, singing sweetly. She seems to be always full of joy and pleasure, and no on knows exactly why. She loves to be alone, walking in the fields and groves, and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her."

This is written of Sara Edwards (my new role-model) by her future husband Jonathon Edwards.
My ultimate goal, is to have that radiating beauty she had by making Christ her first priority, her source for life.

Beauty in God's Eyes.

Beauty in the World's Eyes:

- skinny

- swimsuit body

- curvy(but not too much)

- perfect skin

- tall

- silky hair

- skimpy clothes

- fashionable clothes

- Perfect, white teeth

- loads of make-up

- Catching every guys eyes

Beauty in God's Eyes

- not lazy (proberbs 31 verses 13,14,15,17,27)

- serves her family (vs. 12,15,21)

- serves others (12,15,20,24)

- is financially smart (16, 18, 24)

- doesn't worry, and puts her faith in God (25)

- has wisdom (26)

The two lists are drastically different, which one to choose?

1 John 2:17 says "The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."

why, oh why, would we spend so much time and effort chasing after something that is passing away? And I might add is utterly unachievable? All of the models in magazines that girls are starving themselves to look like, are completely fake.Their pictures have been edited to make their waist smaller, or there eyes bigger, or there teeth brighter. No one really looks that way.

It's all about attracting guy's eyes, but are the guys your attracting the right kind of guys? If you truly have a relationship with Christ, and desire to live in his likeliness, that is NOT the type of guy you want to attract. God has that guy for you (or not if his plan requires). He'll bring him to you at the right moment, God doesn't need our help.

Looking at the list of God's view of beauty might also seem unachievable but as James 1:5 says "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."

All you have to do is ask.God is waiting to turn us into women who radiate GOD's beauty, not or own.

Its not about us, or our identity. Our identity should be God. Not only does our Identity need to reflect God, God is our Identity

Just some things that are on my heart while I'm reading "The Lost Art of True Beauty" by Leslie Ludy.

I'm planning on going through this book with the girls in my jr. high sunday school class. I'm planning on doing this comparison of the World's beauty and God's beauty as an introductory lesson.

God is just speaking to me so much right now, its such a blessing to hear His voice and be reassured of his plan for me.

Random thoughts...

How can we see and experience everything in this world, the things that God has made...
The birds, the trees, the flowers, ants...all of it...
and not fall to our faces in wonder and amazement of Him?
These things around us are so beautiful....that I can't even begin to think how wonderful it all was (and will be again) before it was cursed.

I love being creative, and when a project I'm working on goes will, I'm extremely proud of it. But the things i have made are NOTHING to the marvelous things God has made for us to enjoy.
Whats a pretty skirt, to an Old Oak tree with leaves turning colors, each one just as beautiful as the other?
Whats a drawing, compared to a majestic blue mountain?
Whats a poem, to God's Word: a beautiful love story meant just for us?

I can only imagine how much love He has for us, his most precious creation.

Then I think of the times I have began a project, and it just won't turn out right. I get so frustrated that I give up on the project.
Thank God that He does not act the same way!
He created us, and although we have messed up big time, He has not (or ever will) given up on us. How amazing is He, that He was willing to go through so much trouble, for us who are so un-deserving... just so that we could spend eternity with Him!

I'm not sure why I have written this... I am just feeling particularly overwhelmed with God and His Love! (:

^"8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— ⁹not by works, so that no one can boast. ¹⁰For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

Ephesians 2:8-10

[and I just have to share that I found this bible verse after having written this, during my bible study. I thought it went along perfectly. Isn't God great? (: ]

Being Set-Apart

I am currently reading "Set-Apart Femininity" by Leslie Ludy, and because of this book I was inspired to make this blog. I desire to live "set-apart" as this book describes. Set-apart from the world, living for the King. In this blog I plan to write about my journey through this book, and even after as I learn "God's Sacred Intent" for my life.